yay for formal clothes and more job interviews

as my understanding of the scriptures and my faith increases, i feel like i fall so much harder every time i fall in sin and so much more ashamed when i approach God asking for forgiveness. it’s hard to face God after sin when going through these periods of weeks when you’re just dwelling in the Word 24/7 and totally filled with His joy, it makes you wonder where the tiny crack is that’s toppling you from the skies again and again. Yet as much as it hurts, you realize that in sanctification the sin you keep falling in will be overcome as long as you keep fighting till your last breath and that as a human you are a wretched and sinful being that will not truly escape into a life of perfection with the Creator until you leave leave this one and cease to become an object of this world. To become spiritual beings within and part of yet different than Christ, Holy beings, the final product of the Lord’s plan and dwelling in an eternal paradise with a constant joy all through the grace and mercy that He has allowed on us. it makes sin in this world seem so weak and temporary while everyday great battles of opposing fury clash in our bodies as the Spirit overcomes ourselves and transforms us into witnesses and followers that desire purity and fall on our knees in repentance.